Why does Jimmy Sommers' music sound like it belongs in a softcore porn series on Showtime like Beverly Hills Bordello? It's the shit, but still- he must have written this music while watching porn or something. No words of course...when was the last time you watched porn with background music with vocals? This music makes you feel good. It's tight.

I can't figure why I'm so down lately. I don't wanna whine like a little bitch, but life just ain't the funnest it could be right now...or for the past few years (decade maybe??)...I have so many thoughts running thru my head all at once, making me crazy. I swear people. I'm having reoccuring nightmares about telling people I'm breaking up with them. Lisa will read this and get mad, but I want to be honest here. This shouldn't be so hard. I don't want to hurt people. That's all. I dunno. I'm weird lately. I was so dizzy at work tonight...wanted to go home early, but I stayed a bit over 6 hours. So much time to work, I know. I'd get 8 hours if it wasn't impossible! Sometimes I go back in the back section and listen to Bloomberg TV over this one chick's computer. That's always fun. If they got HBO, I'd stay all friggin night! I get HBO myself, but still...I don't get paid to watch it here at the house. I so need a new job...during the day- when the normal people are awake and working. Ya know how it is.

I told Lisa I was going to bed. Which is what I did. But I got up to write a bit, then lie back down. I'm not feeling well still, so yea. I want one of those burger king burgers...the homestyle kind like they're all grilled in the backyard or whatever. They make that stuff look so good in the ads. I swear to Jesus. Maybe I'll enter the seminary one day with all my Jesus- related exclamations.

I just printed out a calendar for August so I could write down my dentist appt. I should have done this long ago. I always write stuff I need to do on index cards that sit next to the keyboard, but never got around to making an actual calendar out. Like I'm SO busy, huh? I'm not, so what's the use half the time? I have an appointment now tho, reason to break out the mad printage. Wesstttsiideeee. Need to sleep so I can wake up before 4 PM!! Later muh people...

A note to everyone out there...stay away from this stuff! When you're eating it, it has the texture of barfed up butter, and it tastes like bland throw- up! Adding salt does NOT help, my people! This is definitely a treat from the devil!!