July 10, 2002 - 3:18 A.M. CT.
We played a cadence in high school that was based on that song Pure Energy. Maybe you have no idea what part I'm talking about...but trust me, we played it. It was my freshman year, we sucked, it was simple enough to learn, we were behind on some stuff...so that's what we played. Why am I sharing this? Because I downloaded the song before, and I'm listening to it now. I miss high school for that one reason only...marching band. Well, band in general, but especially marching band...playing the gold old snare drum. Too much fun, I swear.
Okay, I am talking to someone online who must be high on crack, because they're acting really weird...saying they're drinking and stuff about getting with some guy. I almost care. I think she thinks I'm gonna get mad and jealous, but I'm not. I'm straight. I'm being a grown up, I think. Good for me, huh? I keep taking time out of writing this to reply to that person...who is, honestly, creeping me out! Agh! Ok...anyhow. Work was okay tonight. I went in about 7: 45, took my break at like 9:45 (went home for it like usual), then I came back and talked to the security guards a lot. I talked to them a lot tonight, helped me get 7 hours...since there is so little real work to do.
I so want my own cartoon. Like Home Movies, or better yet- As Told By Ginger (Carl and Hoodsey rule dammit!) I love cartoons, and I really want something that is all mine, something I created, something people can watch and go wow at. I need to do something big. I need to get out of my life, and into another...well, actually, I need my life to be another. I'm bored with everything. I want to create. I want to make stuff...I want to be big! I want to be remembered when I'm gone, and I'm off to heaven. I want people to be able to pick up something I wrote or created in some manner years from now...decades from now, and laugh, smile, cry...all of that stuff. I'm so tired of being plain old Josh who has a normal job, normal life...I want people to know who I am, and to like me for what I've done (what I've created.) Wow, I sound sorta crazy, huh? I swear I'm in control of all my facilities or whatever you wanna call em, and I'm normal. I'm just bored in general. Oh well...It'll pass. Either that, or I will get the guts to do something and change my life. Too many options tho, and too many ways to screw all of it up...I need time to think before I do anything big like move to Hollywood and start writing movies!
Well, I guess the person I was talking to wasn't really the person I was talking to like I thought I was talking to that person. That made sense, right? Who knows...either way, very annoying. Kids today. I swear. I'm off. Need to find something to eat maybe. I AM hungry, and I want to watch As Told By Ginger episodes again. No, Robert Joseph does NOT have a key for you Carl Foutley!