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06.02.5.09
So I found out that I'm getting laid off in two weeks at the end of work today. I've now lost the girl I love more than the world and the job I enjoyed. This also means the bank will probably pull the loan on my house, so I'll be out the house and the $800 I've spent so far on everything. I should have pulled the fucking trigger months ago. I'm through with this downhill slide.
06.02.09
Spent Friday through Monday at my grandmothers in Illinois. Happily she's doing a lot better. However my grandfather is starting to forget how to eat, so I believe its getting close to time. Spending time in the old folks home makes me realise that I definitely don't want to live that long. There was one lady that would scream from the pain she was in. She sounded like an animal. It was eerie and chilling. Spent most of my time on the mower knocking down the 3 acres outside the cattle fence. Some of it Shaun couldn't get last time due to the rain and it was waist high.
Paperwork has been sent off for the house loan, so now it's wait and wait. I'm itching though. I need more to do to keep my mind off of Jennifer. Speaking of, here is a video for a little nostalgia. Jennifer always commented that I was always playing Weezer's blue album all the time. So here's Say It Ain't So. I'd have embedded it, but apparently Universal is RETARDED and thinks embedding is bad.
And the best song off the album - live
05.28.09
It's amazing the stuff I keep finding out. Apparently Jennifer thought that we were in some war for friends. Like everyone had to choose sides. If you aren't with me, you are against me crap. I was already sad that her last words to me were about the Bat's game, instead of me. But come to find out, she was jumping to conclusions and readying for a war that didn't exist. As many people have told me now, "You just explained the situation and never tried to place me in the middle like she has." What's bothered me most is that she was calling me all sorts of names and hating on me at the other building. Shithead, douchebag, etc. The only time I ever called her anything was straight to her face. I called her an asshole after this last time that she kept trying to use me for sex. The only time I've ever called her anything and it was to her face. I always defended her from everyone else, whether she deserved it or not. I hope she feels better slandering me. Guess she needed to hate me to get rid of me. Wow, love. Ain't it grand. The last memories of something I thought was so special.
On a lighter note, Carlos' Birthday is today. He's old for an albino Mexican. Most of you have probably heard about him in my work stories and a few have met him. Feel free to post up on my Facebook in wishing him a happy bday for turning like 95. Since Jennifer isn't around, I've had to take over getting cupcakes and cards. Also washing the nasty towel in the break room. Yay for cupcakes! They're also finally getting the Taco Bell put together out here on south Preston. We are coming up in the world. I imagine it'll open about the time I move into my house......and the company moves to the new building...
One day I got a telegram from a man I did not know. It said, "Don't let the bastards get you down." And it was signed John Wayne.
05.27.09
Nothing much to report. Still have 3-4 weeks before closing. Like everything else, seems like I'm staring at the clock and seconds become hours. Mungus had a nice cd release show for those that didn't get to make it out. I proved that even when overcast, it's possible to burn a bald head. Here's to skin cancer! Yay! I leave you with an oldie but goodie that was playing in Pizza Hut today.
05.22.09
So, Jennifer showed up at SRS on Tues for her last day. She was dropping off some stuff....but could have just given it to Dean and Chad on lunch. She even put up books on the bookshelf, knowing I'd watch her. Oh the games we play. You know, as much shit as she's done to me, smelling her and hearing her voice just brings out the sun. I really don't know how to describe it. Everything could be shit, and she just makes me feel on cloud 9. If there's one thing I'll never doubt, it's how important she is to me and how much she brings peace to me (when not fucking me over). Just wish I could have done the same for her.
The beach I went to in Sarasota came out as the #2 beach, just behind Hanalei Bay, Hawaii. Guess I'm not the only person that thought Sarasota was really nice. Maybe I'll make it down there in a few years. Go-kart tracks, track days at popular race tracks, sun, beach, and surf. Maybe that'll distract me a little better.
House inspection went ok. There are a few issues to address but it isn't going to fall down any time soon. Nothing glaringly smacking me in the face. I am going to be in the crawl space a bit though. The dipshits drilled a hole in the floor to run cable in rather than properly placign a jack on the wall. It's also just in the bedroom. So i'm going to have to run the cabling and put some jacks in the wall. Also some work on the garage, painting, removing the front metal handrailing (I'm not painting that shit), and other small things. Hopefully the owners will take care of the rest of the guttering for me.
05.19.09
This is a corrections and clarifications post. There is some name confusion. There are two Jennifers, tall and short. Short Jennifer is known as Jenn, whom I dated for 3.5 yrs, 3yrs ago. Then there's tall Jennifer or Jenny. So Jenn, then Jennifer/Jenny. Also Jenn and I have not hooked back up. I'm sort of her caretaker. A very close friend that she can rely on when terrible things happen, like her grandfather passing. Hopefully this cleans up any confusion that has been trickling back to me on my latest post.
05.18.09
What doesn't kill you, is a quitter. Bawahahaha! "He's like Ghandi, but better. He likes puppets. I love puppets." I'm back bitches. New site layout in the works. House in the works. Car stuff. Tree stuff. Work stuff. I decided it was time to redo the site. Get Jennifer off the front page and give her her own page for the time being (The Jennifer Chronicles on the sidebar). That way my dedicated viewers can read everything and those with the shorter attention span can keep up with the new happenings. I still have relatively no direction. After the house, I'm sort of stuck as the moving forward part pretty much ends there. I found everything else I've wanted. So it should stay entertaining as I move day to day aimlessly.
The house. I probably could have searched some more, but with limited time to get out of my apt, I jumped on one. It's pretty nice. Older home a little over 50 yrs. 3 bedroom and a 1.5 car garage with furnace, so I can wrench in the winter and not be freezing my balls off as well as change my oil in the winter. Also has 220 power to the garage so I can maybe get a welder down the road and I'm already set up for it. Nice hard wood floors and relatively fresh paint. There are a few things I'd like to do like refinish the baseboards and the closet sliding doors. Also redo the kitchen some. I'll just be glad to be out of the apt though. The house is on Patterson, so I'm pretty close to 65 and not too far off of work. Although we'll probably move buildings about the time I get into the house as I have about 40 days before the move. I'll still be closer to the new building, so it won't completely be a wash. Of course now I need to start looking at bedroom suits and a new couch. I'll probably patch up the back leg on my present one but I'm still itching to get a nice 4 post bed, night stands, and a nice set of drawers. Of course I get 8g's next tax return for buying a house. That's the tits. Add that to my regular return and the MASSIVE profit sharing check I'll probably get and I'll be sitting very pretty in under a year. I need to get a bunch of yard gnomes for the yard too... Maybe that's what everyone can get me for a house warming gift when we have the party.
Car stuff. Jody, skip to the next paragraph. The Outback is up for sale. 06, black on black leather, 6-disc in dash cd player, awd, HUGE sunroof, suspension upgrades. 15k and its yours. I really don't need it anymore since I'm not moving band equipment and more importantly, I'm not going to be safely transporting Jared and Justin. So please, someone unload this unnecessary car payment off my books. I'm thinking I'll get an old school toyota pickup. Ala, Back to the Future. That way I can haul shit and have no car payment. If the truck has an issue, I'll drive the 7. At least one piece of shit should be working. Hahaha. As for the 7, it's undergoing the knife when I move. My friend Troy has an older turbo 7 that'll I'll be removing from his woods. First thing will be to put the heavier duty turbo drivetrain into mine. This will solve the rearend issue and hopefully the transmission synchros are better in the turbo transmission. Also I'll be looking to rebuild the turbo 4 pot brakes. However I don't think they'll work with the 15" wheels I have. So it might be a little while before they go on. My next step with it is a toss up. I'm debating turboing the na motor in it now. However that's pretty high compression to turbo. I'll need to see how bad the motor is in the one I'm getting. I also still want to get into kart racing. So I'll have to see how money is as the project progresses.
Tree stuff. For the past few months, I've been doing a lot of bonsai'ing with John. I found it to help with my patience and take my mind off things for at least a little bit. I'll have to put up some pics of some of the trees I've been butchering and letting John fix. Unfortunately the tree he gave me is in some need of attention. If anyone is interested in this type of thing, hit me up. John has been trying to garner more attention towards it as the average age of 90.
Work. So we are finally stepping into Inventor 2010 and associated software. 4 of us got to go to a class at ASI last Friday. We made it through without completely falling asleep. There are some really nice things coming out with 2010, so I'm somewhat excited to get on the new software. The guy showed us some other stuff upcoming that looks really fucking sweet as well. Crashes are still on the menu, of course. Although I'll probably be babysitting Sunshine more than normal. I'm just hoping the weekend we do the changeover, everything goes smoothly. Last thing I need is a fast moving forest fire in the midst of it.
In sadder news, Jenn's (not Jennifer from SRS/MHS) grandfather passed away this past week. For those that don't know her, her grandfather was her father and mother rolled into one. He has always taken care of her, so it's a huge loss for her. This is also the second time I've been a pallbearer. Needless to say, it was a very sad weekend. The service went nice. The army had two people there to fold the flag on his coffin and offer it to the family with the blessing of the President and the country. He had served in the Korean war. It was also a bit odd, as she and I stayed together for two days since she didn't want to be alone. Despite having slept beside her for 3 yrs previously, it was a little weird to be sleeping beside her again. That and I had forgotten how fun it was trying to sleep two people on a twin bed. As for funerals and all that comes with them, the condition of my grandparents, I'm afraid it won't be too long before I'll be doing this all too soon.
In happier news, Jenn and I also caught "Big Poppa Stampley" at Johnny V's last week. He was doing an acoustic set there and I must say, he's a very good performer. If you get the chance, check this guy out if you like caribbean jazz and blues. Or as he calls himself, the CariBluJazz King.
Until my next entry, remember kiddies, always go balls deep!
05.16.09
New site in the works. Also in the midst of changing hosts for the website and blackcraft domain hosting. Make sure you have blackcraftengineering.com bookmarked and not the insight address.
05.06.09
Each day I wonder why the fuck I woke up. My love won't even talk to me. I miss her more with each passing day. Fucking drugs. Unicorn. Mythical. Guess that sums it up. Here's to one week down and footing on a slippery slope.
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