THE
FRAGMENTS OF FLOWERS
by
Adam Watson
(2004)
Author's Note: I
composed this short story in Dr. Tamara Yohannes's
Women and Literature class, as an alternative to a more straight-forward essay
about early women writers we had discussed and read. Throughout the
story, a hodge-podge of different translations of the writers' words have been used, interspersed with fictionalized phrases and
dialogue. Some of these translations were given in class without being
explicitly credited and sourced (or on websites without translator's
credits). Since this creates a grey area for the sake of paid
publication, I mulled over the appropriateness of how to share the story with a
larger audience. However, since several people responded favorably to
the story -- Dr. Yohannes in particular -- I decided
to publish it on my site for non-profit, educational use.
Special thanks to Dr. Yohannes for her encouragement
and inspiration. She is a tremendous professor and a credit to the
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When the last temple attendant had left, Enheduanna strode to the front altar and dropped her gown to her ankles. She casually stepped out of it and mounted up to the burning pyre.
It was the old way of addressing the Goddess Inanna, but only a high priestess such as herself was allowed to do so. For Enheduanna, this was her first chance to truly address Her since the Purge. Her Purge, she thought, then guiltily admonished herself.
She did not feel the desert chill of the
“Inanna!” she intoned.
The flames flickered.
“Lady of all the divine powers, resplendent light, righteous woman clothed in radiance, beloved of An and Urac! Mistress of heaven, with the great pectoral jewels, seizer of the seven divine powers, devastatrix of all known things! To destroy, to build up, to tear out and to settle are yours, Inanna! To turn a man into a woman and a woman into a man are yours, Inanna! Desirability and arousal, goods and property, are yours, Inanna! To cause the heart to tremble, to cause an illness of the heart, are yours, Inanna! To have a wife, to love, are yours, Inanna! To create a woman’s chamber, to kiss a child’s lips are yours, Inanna! You have defeated the unbelievers. Your worship is again of the altar, and not of the hidden corners. Your Enheduanna, once like a leper in exile, has returned. Thanks to you, Inanna, and your pity, I have returned for You. To be Your mouth, Your humble servant. Yours!”
Her torso crumpled in a sudden bow, tears hitting the ground only an instant before her lips kissed the floor. She was sobbing. She allowed herself the luxury. All her time away, she did not weep once.
The flames patiently waited. Enheduanna felt the heat dry her face, and soon she was not crying. But as she slowly rose to her knees, eye level with the shield, the look that crossed her face was not one of relief, but consternation.
“Inanna,” she said.
The flames were very close now.
“I carried your ritual basket. I intoned the acclaim. I praised you, recited your me’s for you. The songs I have created here on this earth no one has created before. For you, Inanna, I have let no man or God cross my threshold. Yet in my time of need, you abandoned me. Why? Why did you leave your beloved?”
Silence, as shadows played on the temple’s walls. Enheduanna waited.
Suddenly, an ember-speck spit out of the shield. It curved up and lazily floated down, landing on her left breast. A singe, a sudden pain that made her wince, then nothing.
Enheduanna kneeled there, naked, and could not think
of a reply.
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